Here I am now thinking
of her yes she’s on my mind.
No I haven’t been drinking
just keeping sane in my time.
My place so bold am I
because I simply beg to try,
to keep my faculties about me
because without her I could cry.
I can’t stop it now I’m told
that my chaos was too much.
My mind keeps yelling
to confess an empty pain of such.
My limbs fail and are numb
while I come crashing down.
Because there’s no value enough
from the beauty in her I found.
I am broken and torn asunder
from this life of frequent pain.
So I think about her smile awhile
because it soothes me and makes me sane.
There is so much regret and hurt
that came from words that I said.
That I’m drowning in emptiness
and I find no comfort in my bed.
I have so much warmth inside
from the memories of her so sweet.
Intense and visceral are my gestures
because my escape to her makes me weak.
A storm rages within
I’m not sure where to begin.
I can’t stop the thunder
from waging a war beneath my skin.
It’s a purple hue with a flashing light
this feeling that I can not fight.
The longing for her piercing stare
to bring the peace I only find in her eyes.