Brain Therapy: My Disasterous Relationship Vol. 2

Shattering the silence,

came your voice in night.

Blinded by your nuances

shine bright did your light.

***

Rescuing my misdirection

I ventured after my journey

through this twisted existence

scorned by my own learning.

***

That the world forgives not

those weak and who’re fraught

by misfortune of their own

and by things they control not.

***

Bled and shed did I tears

had I for myself and for others.

For here we’re all here bound

as sisters, mothers and brothers.

***

Yet you were my place;

my doomed destination erased.

That was covered in such gloom

which the wicked could trace.

***

For liars sat in wait for me

as immovable as the fixed sun.

Scorching the path I walked,

bleeding me dry when done.

***

They blinded me bear

until you appeared there.

So much was I unaware

when you pretended to care.

***

Now in my age I found shade

and subsided has my inward rage

left after I had been made caged

by your false words as if some sage.

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  1. kristianw84 says:

    I’m so sorry that you’ve been hurt. Hugs, friend.

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    1. Thank you Kristian. It was a complicated situation. Yet I hold no enmity for her. Life is full of drama but emotion and feelings just are. It hurt but so does life. It was what I felt at the time. They are real feelings I think a lot of people feel at times and those who can relate may be able to heal knowing that there are others who have felt the same pain. Thank you my friend.

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      1. kristianw84 says:

        Yes, if I’ve learned anything after the death of my mother, it’s that we must feel everything as it comes, otherwise it will fester and we’ll become prisoners in our own bodies.

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        1. The loss of a loved one so close hurts me that you hurt. I’m so sorry and I know her energy remains with you and always will!!!

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          1. kristianw84 says:

            Thank you. Yes, she’s still with me I feel her in the wind and I think of her every time I see the silver streak in my hair, which happened shortly after her death. I miss her terribly, but I am better now. I went to a very dark place, but like you, writing is like therapy for me too, and has helped a lot.

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            1. The universe wastes nothing. What energy we possess in this realm follows us into the next. The laughter, the joy and elation that swells in our souls carries sustains us. Passing is a fate we all share and we give life meaning through our joy we share. I will keep you in my thoughts and I know your in a good place now. I can see that by how you pour your heart out on paper as so many of us do. Dine well Kristian and remember to be you! 😊 Because like I said, your mom raised a very kind and talented woman who is deep and well spoken.

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              1. kristianw84 says:

                Thank you so much, Jared! You don’t know how much that means to me!

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