You conjure to exercise

your illuminating ways.

What you said was clear

but hindsight is in a haze.

You’re excited to please

eyes that look at you;

but any that do pursue

you alter and confuse.

Moving on some stage,

where you spin a trance,

do you remember what

we shared in our dance?

My vision is now astute.

Off of rocky shore I steer.

My compass now correct

but still I shed some tears.

You my great adventure

were such a joy to learn.

Burn you were a beacon

so brightly I had to turn.

I’ve watched others try

do what I did to no avail.

You know I know better

than you know yourself.

I have separated fictions

that I know aren’t true

because I really still am

after years a shade of blue.

Guilty I am that I made

above my God an idol.

I lost myself as you ran

your life at full throttle.

My veins ran pulsing in

arteries bringing me life.

You were both my first

crush and my first strife.

I connect the dots now,

the shimmer light drew.

I know how you did it;

find me now you do too.

You educated me fully,

such banks full of peril.

I remember everything

from Cupid’s first arrow.

Here still I have no spite;

no bitterness do I possess.

I find to find slumber now

my love for you I confess.

I am a version of what was.

Dear I still hear your voice.

My death will be in a hazy sea

due to a youth made choice.

2 Comments Add yours

  1. Katherine says:

    Very beautiful and nice poem!

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Thank you Katherine!


Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s