Coursing its way through
my body is a chemical agent
that numbs my body warm;
succumb to pain I’m a patient.
The years have passed lost
is the youth I once was then
when I an invincible soldier
never felt as I do now in skin.
I ponder what the future it
holds in my ignoring practice
of divulging every desire in
youth I’ve never felt like this.
My body it wears thin old
age is knocking at my door.
I ask myself what is this pain
and beg the Lord it no more.
See I a well wished phantom
swiftly is pushed into my vein
showing me a world abstract
numbing the deepened pain.
The world fades away black
does make time pass by fast.
When my eyes do they close
hours pass by I’m under a gas.
I wish this anesthesia would
come at my beckon call always
injecting into my loneliness in
this infuriating and damp place.
I will spin my tale in the dark
placed in a mental state no pain
will reach me while my mind
phases out in a medicated rain.
