You conjure to exercise

your illuminating ways.

What you said was clear

but hindsight is in a haze.

***

You’re excited to please

eyes that look at you;

but any that do pursue

you alter and confuse.

***

Moving on some stage,

where you spin a trance,

do you remember what

we shared in a romance?

***

My vision is now astute.

Off of rocky shore I steer.

My compass now correct

but direction is not clear.

***

You my great adventure

were such a joy to learn.

Burn you were a beacon

too bright me I burned.

***

I’ve watched others try

do what I did to no avail.

You know I know better

than you know yourself.

***

I have separated fictions

that I know aren’t true

because I really still am

after years a shade blue.

***

Guilty I am that I made

above my God an idol.

I lost myself as you ran

your life at full throttle.

***

My veins ran pulsing in

arteries bringing me life.

You were both my first

crush and my first strife.

***

I connect the dots now,

the shimmer light drew.

I know how you did it;

find me now you do too.

***

You educated me fully,

such banks full of peril.

I remember everything

from Cupid’s first arrow.

***

Here still I have no spite;

no bitterness I possess.

I find to find slumber it

my love to you I confess.

***

I’m versions of what was.

Dear I still hear your voice.

My death it’ll be out at sea

due to my youth’s choice.