Taught At Birth

We don’t remember the day breath expelled from lungs. The newness, the creation from the womb of a living being. We were a joy brought in pain. We were alive inside the living. Giving not a care except for just being. Forget we have the luxury of just being for a moment, just being. All…

To The Clouds

Dear Thunder, Up into your wrath I stand naked and afraid I can not move I’m paralyzed The picket fences bend The horses neigh and scatter The windmill churns blistering The clouds part at lightning The hairs on my body paralyzed I scream eternal swears of pain I am at your mercy pierce me not…

The Forgotten Flame

I had forgotten heat, I had forgotten flame. Upon this table I sit now not ever the same. Blackened by earth it revolves and stops not. The hands of time they continue to tick not stop. For the earth I have a grip on it so dim light reaches me as I slip from a…

A Place I Used To Go

My eyes look outward, see all this bitter cold. My sight sees mischief, so my anxieties take hold. Where I am looking is not supplying calm that I thought would be there; I see visions of black. I must shed all this fear and awaken my strength from depths of my tears struck me blind…

So My Heart I’ll Guard

I could have been, I say over and over. I want to cleanse a new life while sober. All I can think in the mirror blink I in darkness sink, a weak link. I have some idea of the war raging outside my door so me I am caving. I pray to the blue because…

Being At Peace

I want to attain peace within myself as much as I want there to be peace in the people in my vicinity. Not just because I don’t want to be some Savior or someone to look up to, but because it reminds me that attaining trust and confidence in myself is just as important as…

Issues

I’m a complete wreck over some things I have to get off my chest. You see there is someone who put me in an awful position awhile back. It has consumed me and my mind. I’m distracted all the time now. What happened was surreal so my entire life has changed. I’ve never wanted to…

Twisted Things

I heard a voice laughing,cackling through phone.So I said this is not cool,this I in no way condone. I will and can not havedismay in this place too.So I just have to be calmand not be just like you. You are a boy who likes toyell at girls giving orders.But cower to complain whendone same…

Tender

From the boughbroken not soft.Crucify a Christ,the one you lost. Saved you are not,you don’t want it.Tender whispersyou desire my lips. Vacant is your soul,fill in the carnal.It is far too strong,skin covered caramel. Life runs to the endand on ground tackspierce flesh of feetonce soft now black. Fill that hole fallnot anymore love.Your savior…

Great-Grandmother

Grandmother mine,sweet touch of God.Reminiscing you me,never were at odds. Dear Father God myheart it beats off sound. My countenance low,I see only the ground. Sweet grandmother Ione day will see yourmother above cloudsfrom a love so pure.  (For my waiting Great-Grandmother. May you rest in peace. We will see each other again.) ———————————————————- I…

Against The Grain

I wrote the words,pain pushed the keys.In my mind a shadowmacabre called me forth. The liquor, once years Itasted long ago found myvicious distaste of allmy weaknesses soft spot. I’ve asked all that istender into my realmbut still the rum spoke:“Hide pain of your regrets.” “You are a soldier of mine,”so said the bottle.As hurt…

Thank You

This is for you all. I crave no attention and I carry heavy burdens. I am messed up guys. After a really bad wreck years ago I went through bouts of depression, alcoholism and suicide ideation. I crave no sympathy. I’m just thankful for the friends I’ve made here. You guys are more precious to…

Top 3 On Repeat

Just a few songs I wanted to share that I’m listening to. Thank you guys for stopping by and have a good day! “Hemorrhage”- Fuel “Pardon Me” – Incubus “Tomorrow” – Silverchair

Child Of Fire

I function as I please.I get gnashing teethwhen told what to do;I do what pacifies me. Travels I have madeto the edge of sanity.So I have to breatheand let my heart free. Conflicted my home,growing up inside,taught me what to be;taught what to hide. All judge all rememberpieces of memory thatgrasp us by the neck…

The Wreckage Mine

Switchblade witfurrows of mindplanted seeds meI grow maligned. My quest rests Itake quick breathfor the cuts deephearken my death. Adorn sympathyand I’ll cry withyou for I try attaintruthes not myths. Why can’t I go fora day without hurt?Christ above explainsI am but just dirt.  So I’ll catch the tailof a meteor its flash.Fly through space…

Awake In The Flames

What is this flame,that consumes me,from inside a pulsebarely alive you see? I am the same as Iwas and still am now.But I thought emberswithin were doused. I see the faces of myinfatuations lay bare.I see their silhouettes,my heart wasn’t there. Deepening a quandryI ask myself the heat,why does it rise to myeyes and ears…

Angel

Your my worldall is unfurledand my wordsdaft make cold. I was and amunmotivated.Try move me,you do I cry. Not a mile noran inch have Imoved in here,and I’m splendid. I could think ofa dim dark past.But I see a cheekof yours laugh. The grip of dampdark and twistedthing tangles me,but you lift it. Let me…

Together

Maybe I went too fardown a tunnel we arecomplete complexitybut not too bizarre. I am a fixture a focusa vague but decisiveeye for things don’t bevocal to be divisive. See the changes thatI can make but choosewho I am who youcan also be part too. Come with me now Iwant the things we allwant the…