I’m a complete wreck over some things I have to get off my chest. You see there is someone who put me in an awful position awhile back. It has consumed me and my mind. I’m distracted all the time now.

What happened was surreal so my entire life has changed. I’ve never wanted to hurt another soul on this planet. Or cause them harm. Or make them feel defensive if I say no to something or disagree with them.

Especially when it is someone with authority whom I have many things in common with. To say no, “that is not right” would have created tension and because I didn’t there has been no tension. But that still doesn’t make it right and it has been eating on me. To the core.

Honestly, to put me in the situation he did, and I stress, he, was wrong. I caved. I didn’t know what hit me but when it did it hit like an iron fist.

11 Comments Add yours

  1. kristianw84 says:

    Sorry to hear you’re struggling. 😔 Hugs, my friend.

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  2. Susi Bocks says:

    I’m sorry that you’ve had this stress. You say there was no tension because you didn’t speak up, but it seems it’s caused it all in you. I hope you are able to confront the situation to find relief, Jared.

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    1. I hate confrontation.

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      1. Susi Bocks says:

        I totally understand, just thinking that internalizing it doesn’t help you. If anything, it makes it worse!

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    2. Even when confronting my own demons.


      1. Susi Bocks says:

        All change is hard. ((hugs))

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