Against The Grain

I wrote the words,pain pushed the keys.In my mind a shadowmacabre called me forth. The liquor, once years Itasted long ago found myvicious distaste of allmy weaknesses soft spot. I’ve asked all that istender into my realmbut still the rum spoke:“Hide pain of your regrets.” “You are a soldier of mine,”so said the bottle.As hurt…

Thank You

This is for you all. I crave no attention and I carry heavy burdens. I am messed up guys. After a really bad wreck years ago I went through bouts of depression, alcoholism and suicide ideation. I crave no sympathy. I’m just thankful for the friends I’ve made here. You guys are more precious to…

Child Of Fire

I function as I please.I get gnashing teethwhen told what to do;I do what pacifies me. Travels I have madeto the edge of sanity.So I have to breatheand let my heart free. Conflicted my home,growing up inside,taught me what to be;taught what to hide. All judge all rememberpieces of memory thatgrasp us by the neck…

Angel

Your my worldall is unfurledand my wordsdaft make cold. I was and amunmotivated.Try move me,you do I cry. Not a mile noran inch have Imoved in here,and I’m splendid. I could think ofa dim dark past.But I see a cheekof yours laugh. The grip of dampdark and twistedthing tangles me,but you lift it. Let me…

Together

Maybe I went too fardown a tunnel we arecomplete complexitybut not too bizarre. I am a fixture a focusa vague but decisiveeye for things don’t bevocal to be divisive. See the changes thatI can make but choosewho I am who youcan also be part too. Come with me now Iwant the things we allwant the…

Casualty

Coursing througharteries the fleshwhere we two wefeel life is so fresh. I have hope again,until I break fromall the bending myGod I am done. Tell of a directionDear Lord spreadwhere I can see alllife from the dead. My world is pale,my victories small.Yet I have conquredwhere I often fall. The path has hurtall my willing…

My Shinny Gun

I’ve grown oldin this plane ofshinny things toexude I try love. They shimmerand I keep closemy gun my guard,my love I suppose. Look my love hear,I’ve a bounty onmy head I’m gone;the great beyond. There I hold trial,I share no smile,the air is thick I’llall faults compile. My light burns inmy essence unseen.There I am…

Unto The Uncouth

It seems a softsound found me.It seems I releaseall my soft things. I do not want it,dulcet tender sort.I breathe now afirey blazing retort. I seek truth in ahand I carry close.No one ever seesits lethal little dose. Ask me and I’llshy away from you.Ask me and I’lldance it in a tune. The truth it…

From Within

Deep in my soulin shallow brooksI feel chill on feet,in the dark I look. Black is my heartfor the night is too.Truth is I know notwhat I can try do. I call to all the godsthat man has made.The dark consumesso upon you I gaze. The animal insideit has no remorse.My logical mind Iapply then…

The Slow Burn

Young one I’m done,we had a quick runwhere I a thing yoursmust supply your fun. Know that this soulhas been through hell.Should be some meatof gossip you’ll tell. You see I’ve seen atorrent of pain in rainthat not of lies yousupply can make stain. I’m burning away andone day you’ll knowwe are all dieing andmy…

Spooky Asssociations

Forces of evil ask meto dance in evil ways.I complacent said soI did my ancient thing. I cry to give mercy Ihave a step in the door.My memory will cry;it’s an ancient thing. I let wolves tear me,I let vicious wives tellof a hell about me andbehind backs I care not. Darkness is a way…

The Cove

I see me now and I shake.I see me now and I awake. The sun has touched meand I am a broken tree. The color is opaque trustI’m going to do what must. My roots run deep down,under a tree’s I am found. I put off the things I’ve oftenused to before I find a…

Where It Belongs

I try prysapphirein an eyein desire. The timeit is gonewhere itbelongs. So let’s beshit crazy;togetherbreathe. I’ll light acandle sewa story youwill know. Maybe bassfrom yourtape deckit was pure. So let me Iwill do wellto tell wherelove dwelled. In a lane sodark a night.Stars in sky,were bright. Crickets lowchirped smilekiss we awaydid all vile. In a…

I Remember When I Loved You

I always got a long time to tune in song where I live in beats that know no wrong. Covering the hurt in underneath tan skin and a slim sort of grin I reach to satisfy again. I see your eyes glow the room that slows me I try to get to know where heat…

One Last Tear

I’ve live beauty every day when the thoughts of you do begin. Really it’s like the same for all. Let’s not let our decency ever fall. When I’m gone and the earth splits open I’ll always remember a kiss. You follow me back to a youth one with which I was so uncouth. I do…

Who The Hell Am I?

Guys, I wanted to take a break from the normal routine here. Listen, usually when I write it is late and I’m tired. Just so happens I think things before my head hits the pillow. You guys are the ones who see my thought processes. So let us be clear. I’ve been in several relationships…

Foggy Recollection

Fire in the days makes full blaze in mind is haze I put into phase. I’m a soar eyes, darkened mine, chronic surmise, seeps my mind. I feel nothing I slip soot patches exploded I play with matches. I move ease see a haze complete it all ill conceived ideas did replete. I feel a…

Once Again

Oft I cry treason, in a realm reason is a hurt we’re ill in every season. Oh the look I see every day a path my memory hold I do mental math. Is it this function, a logic I can’t see? Let us begin run in sun to dive in sea. But for to prosper…

A Dose Of The Real

It is completely silent here. As I rest my mind is wandering aimlessly. I’m trying my best to describe a moment I had in my life with someone whom I almost married. But hurt resides in the memory of her. To think ill of her would be like me saying my love for her I…

Random Shit At Midnight Vol. 2

I was a smoker for many years. From 18 to 38 I smoked Camel Blue 99’s. Boy, they hit the spot. After a meal of ribeye steak and mash potatoes and gravy…man, a cig hit the spot. Now don’t run away. Nicotine. That’s what I want to address at heart. I suffer from severe anxiety….

Blissfully Detained

Finally made it, in my own bed. A place welcome rest for my head. So barred up in this prison views I’ve had at times visions, untruth. Call me up rise I will occassion give past my old own persuasion. Relent I give up I’ve my own way to dredge up my lulls of the…

I Know You

The fields always grew us we tasted dew of youth let’s not leave wasted. Forward back too am I very bruised a tick-tock a clock rocks me as I muse. Tall we’ve grown my friend twisted is an idea now and never did I miss it. Time has absorbed none of your grace. Here now…

A Rapid Pulse

Your memory’s quite a companion. With time they’ve turned phantom. It is a treasonous thought I abandon those feelings I felt I won’t feel them. A decade passed since I was betrayed, emotionally I almost found a grave. My pulse runs rapid now I’m scathed. Thinking things where I was enslaved. I ponder whether I…

Let’s Talk

I really don’t know what to say my friends. I was witness to a great tragedy I thought I’d never have to witness nowadays. The first “R” rated film I ever saw was “Predator.” The second was “Glory.” Now, my father is the most kind and decent man I know on this planet. As well…

In Your Prose

My dear please explain I plead for help breathe in lines I read. Enchant a pure source my cure. Attraction sure, in ink a leisure. Gasp I do dear, I see the same. Have no shame, see your name. I know it in air in which prepare I do for to repair our bridge there….

Cripple

These notions selfish a wish that begs cut along a wrist. Pain’s weight thrashing go away senses feel not a low. So I manic am always dosed. I open doors I but am closed. So I’ll see fit I lash at a light. It flickers as I reflect an eye. If an origin an eye…

An Ode To Doug: A Rogue Hornet Who Left Me No Choice

It was a day like any other when first I encountered him. While sitting in my chair I sipped coffee whilst basking in the warm sun, taking slow drags off my cigarette. My head was looking down at my phone in my lap when I guess this little dude had decided to fly my way…

Facade

I am a ghoul who will fool, that fool’s full, I drip a drool. By night I fly in intrepid sky with a grin sly kiss goodbye. Let me go trip on this acidic trip I fix I lift this kind a fix. Little Annie I said so I’ll try to a sweet bye come…

Gramps

There’s a grit to this man of God. That strikes no person but prods. For the stubborn, a champion king who with hands he could do anything. Construct a house, build a strong bed. Fish the streams he did so to keep fed. Found a bottle for the battle it inside, crept in the dark…

For An Ex Of Fire

Weeping swells travel up into my industry. They talk of vanity it made me so complete. Power of the pen spy diaries bleeds an eye of other vessels a skin I used as my disguise. Never shall we join as a posey is thrown up an aisle where we join, and drink Christ’s Cup. My…