For Today

Took my meds today,thought I’d share this.Of often spoken of allconsuming rapid bliss. For today I can turn alittle black it is okay.My time here on thisrock ever runs away. Closest I’ll ever come,as a ticking time bombwill be the day I reachfor an extended calm. Ever closer to shit itsits a bit too crooked.My…

Quiet As Depth Of Sea

Twist profuselyvines of fruit swell.Is it within you toexert hurt dispel? I think of ways Icould shoot airwith my own armlay waste all cares. Yet the alleys ofa street of diseasecourse in veins inchorus we plead. Need the angel Iknew a place calmupon grass I lay Icould study dawn. The day young Ibeg unto my…

Vessels Bleed

I’ve always hadan image of whatI am today say athing you must. Tell me storiesof the pills and allthe of the alcoholand I’ll try help call. But your a stepaway from the edge.Keep me dear agift a simple pledge. Take me please,set your needs at ease.For the vessels needto only bleed.

Abominable

Save me, this drug has limits I’m above. I ashame a family I sleepless my nights. Starven, kept crypt a mouth on my lip. Shall I breathe I suffocate my eyes? Take will I a reason repel you a treason. Condition, is nominal, I function abominable.

Remnants

Off in the distance, where I can conceive beyond the brambles I try maintain an ease. For where I am is dry to the gut of a divide that haunts my mind in perception of time. My judgement is off, so I judge taunt scoff, at the pedestal it aloft, received at not a cost….

Judged Proper

Preacher teach me what I must attain to this level of me I must to maintain. No answer so my dear priestly hand will the air ride to sanity to try land. I can only paint I exert with a thrust that which I do I seek for why must. That is why I cry,…

Prayer To The One

I shallow call thee, my Lord I’m gone. Making every turn, hopefully the one. I string burn ends, try to keep together, the weight I want I gone as if a feather. Lord my call is up, lift me unto a star. So bright will blind here me I bear scar. Is it only you…

Look At Me Now

The peak rises, soft dew grass covers is a mist upon your past. Dressed a dress I duress confess has been made; tears such mess. Drawing made in lines steady, I see a pill I am escape ready. Acid on tounge, cocaine for taste. Look at me dad, I am such waste. So let me…

Diseased

Lost my mind, see sight fright I find in failing moms delight. The roots me long ago came; pain a friend it calls by name. All bottles gave me deep thirst, my mind numb dulls the worst. I see visions for I too can dream. What I call real you do not see. I fallen…

Fed In My Head

How many times have I taken pause to reflect what eyes of mine they saw. Glassed over from an intake of wicked things alter states they reality twisted. I am inebriated too much I divulge but regret will not grow; the past drugs shut. Moments spawn I find me redefine me so all that’s mystery…

Up On The Horizon

If alive take me my angel a love my soul dreams it of holy touch. I go places I see full of the dead. The headstones above necks fed. Walking tall I’ll bend fall down. Fall does a halo, hurt is crowned. I sense I numb extremities with fluid fermented crashing my lip. This life…

I Numbness Provide

Amidst the wolves as the Bible it said I see the devil prey up inside my head. My laugh it’s seen in my fiery smiles; I feed the beast for life can be an exile. I have been down many roads I bled. How I it overcame it escapes my head. Our reality presents things…

Trails Monsters Follow

Fear it permeates down into a cheek. All the drugs used allow you to sleep. Are you crying my dear behind masks? Your terror hidden is by a metal flask. Intoxicate to numb your rage it’s born. It is as if a hell bite a smile for it’s torn. Fill the empty void, your emptiness…

Feed The Fire

In the hours of dawn when light goes down I scan the night long in this detested town. I in safely sanctuaries pray hard night keeps drawing out functions keeping me from sleep. I see you you creep in my mind and soak dry the calm and fire inside feed my needs to supply. Crack…

Addicted

*** Never could I project a beautiful notion without such an innocently born devotion. It may indeed be the part of my brain addiction has known to be places I remain. Your thoughts are where there is solace, that slay the pain inside and do call us. To think ideas that become like addictions to…

Ill Made Perceptions

It is important to note that I wrote this two years ago today. I have been lucky to overcome some obstacles but I have to remember where I was so that I remember to never go back to the dark place I was in. **** The bottle it calls me by name to blot out…

Complexity Colored Blue

I suffered depression for years. Lost in despair I turned into a bitter lifeless person. I filled the hole inside me with anything I could to numb the pain. I was an alcoholic. I had nothing inside me that was beautiful. It was a terrible phase of my life that I felt I had no…

Sober Tendencies

I broke the book. Underneath I took an innocent look. It raptured and shook. Starving for more, as angels did emplore, turning to the door my mind did ignore. I reached for bottles earnestly in full throttle. For pictures of sanity I am not a lucid model. Softness is a drug, love a pill to…