Against The Grain

I wrote the words,pain pushed the keys.In my mind a shadowmacabre called me forth. The liquor, once years Itasted long ago found myvicious distaste of allmy weaknesses soft spot. I’ve asked all that istender into my realmbut still the rum spoke:“Hide pain of your regrets.” “You are a soldier of mine,”so said the bottle.As hurt…

Thank You

This is for you all. I crave no attention and I carry heavy burdens. I am messed up guys. After a really bad wreck years ago I went through bouts of depression, alcoholism and suicide ideation. I crave no sympathy. I’m just thankful for the friends I’ve made here. You guys are more precious to…

Child Of Fire

I function as I please.I get gnashing teethwhen told what to do;I do what pacifies me. Travels I have madeto the edge of sanity.So I have to breatheand let my heart free. Conflicted my home,growing up inside,taught me what to be;taught what to hide. All judge all rememberpieces of memory thatgrasp us by the neck…

Angel

Your my worldall is unfurledand my wordsdaft make cold. I was and amunmotivated.Try move me,you do I cry. Not a mile noran inch have Imoved in here,and I’m splendid. I could think ofa dim dark past.But I see a cheekof yours laugh. The grip of dampdark and twistedthing tangles me,but you lift it. Let me…

Together

Maybe I went too fardown a tunnel we arecomplete complexitybut not too bizarre. I am a fixture a focusa vague but decisiveeye for things don’t bevocal to be divisive. See the changes thatI can make but choosewho I am who youcan also be part too. Come with me now Iwant the things we allwant the…

Casualty

Coursing througharteries the fleshwhere we two wefeel life is so fresh. I have hope again,until I break fromall the bending myGod I am done. Tell of a directionDear Lord spreadwhere I can see alllife from the dead. My world is pale,my victories small.Yet I have conquredwhere I often fall. The path has hurtall my willing…

My Shinny Gun

I’ve grown oldin this plane ofshinny things toexude I try love. They shimmerand I keep closemy gun my guard,my love I suppose. Look my love hear,I’ve a bounty onmy head I’m gone;the great beyond. There I hold trial,I share no smile,the air is thick I’llall faults compile. My light burns inmy essence unseen.There I am…

Unto The Uncouth

It seems a softsound found me.It seems I releaseall my soft things. I do not want it,dulcet tender sort.I breathe now afirey blazing retort. I seek truth in ahand I carry close.No one ever seesits lethal little dose. Ask me and I’llshy away from you.Ask me and I’lldance it in a tune. The truth it…

From Within

Deep in my soulin shallow brooksI feel chill on feet,in the dark I look. Black is my heartfor the night is too.Truth is I know notwhat I can try do. I call to all the godsthat man has made.The dark consumesso upon you I gaze. The animal insideit has no remorse.My logical mind Iapply then…

The Slow Burn

Young one I’m done,we had a quick runwhere I a thing yoursmust supply your fun. Know that this soulhas been through hell.Should be some meatof gossip you’ll tell. You see I’ve seen atorrent of pain in rainthat not of lies yousupply can make stain. I’m burning away andone day you’ll knowwe are all dieing andmy…

The Cove

I see me now and I shake.I see me now and I awake. The sun has touched meand I am a broken tree. The color is opaque trustI’m going to do what must. My roots run deep down,under a tree’s I am found. I put off the things I’ve oftenused to before I find a…

One Last Tear

I’ve live beauty every day when the thoughts of you do begin. Really it’s like the same for all. Let’s not let our decency ever fall. When I’m gone and the earth splits open I’ll always remember a kiss. You follow me back to a youth one with which I was so uncouth. I do…

Once Again

Oft I cry treason, in a realm reason is a hurt we’re ill in every season. Oh the look I see every day a path my memory hold I do mental math. Is it this function, a logic I can’t see? Let us begin run in sun to dive in sea. But for to prosper…

A Dose Of The Real

It is completely silent here. As I rest my mind is wandering aimlessly. I’m trying my best to describe a moment I had in my life with someone whom I almost married. But hurt resides in the memory of her. To think ill of her would be like me saying my love for her I…

Random Shit At Midnight Vol. 2

I was a smoker for many years. From 18 to 38 I smoked Camel Blue 99’s. Boy, they hit the spot. After a meal of ribeye steak and mash potatoes and gravy…man, a cig hit the spot. Now don’t run away. Nicotine. That’s what I want to address at heart. I suffer from severe anxiety….

A Rapid Pulse

Your memory’s quite a companion. With time they’ve turned phantom. It is a treasonous thought I abandon those feelings I felt I won’t feel them. A decade passed since I was betrayed, emotionally I almost found a grave. My pulse runs rapid now I’m scathed. Thinking things where I was enslaved. I ponder whether I…

Let’s Talk

I really don’t know what to say my friends. I was witness to a great tragedy I thought I’d never have to witness nowadays. The first “R” rated film I ever saw was “Predator.” The second was “Glory.” Now, my father is the most kind and decent man I know on this planet. As well…

Facade

I am a ghoul who will fool, that fool’s full, I drip a drool. By night I fly in intrepid sky with a grin sly kiss goodbye. Let me go trip on this acidic trip I fix I lift this kind a fix. Little Annie I said so I’ll try to a sweet bye come…

Gramps

There’s a grit to this man of God. That strikes no person but prods. For the stubborn, a champion king who with hands he could do anything. Construct a house, build a strong bed. Fish the streams he did so to keep fed. Found a bottle for the battle it inside, crept in the dark…

For An Ex Of Fire

Weeping swells travel up into my industry. They talk of vanity it made me so complete. Power of the pen spy diaries bleeds an eye of other vessels a skin I used as my disguise. Never shall we join as a posey is thrown up an aisle where we join, and drink Christ’s Cup. My…

Release

I fell I fell, night did too, in my dark is all of blue. My own eye is eyeing the told I’m coniving. Paint me dearly bless, the broken parts address. I want a pardon please. Let me a last look ease. But if I a pupil of fire, I’ll burn I’ll let conspire. None…

Guillotine

It says it nicer, for this torture. Love is hopeless, all mine for her. I try define it a word other than the love I sink in, is as if quicksand. I felt a glance I a man just saw her. A smile it danced my mind’s foyer. At the front I see, at the…

Just A Thought

This place steer me into the open breeze. Smoke myself into avenue obscure then fall too. Make a ground where I have lost I’ve found. Here brambles crack; worms crawl in soul, black. Shelves, books you’ve read; feed me, dear before I dead. Take it, a hand. Give a place I stand.

Leaves In The Past

No, I’m not ever saying goodbye I feel the cold steel, reality I will deny. I’ve thought you more than once upon my trails I a traveling dunce. I know the fields where wheat sew do men of power to refuse to grow. Bountiful crop a stream it brings when logic talks a beautiful thing….

Bends In The Flame

Abstain turbulent pubescent tirades that strike well a fit but not a face. I feel the air shift in hypnotic wails. Strike me wind it inside sails assails. Which way turn I feel dashing swoon. Yet inside empty I stand in this room. The sheets blue I’ve but a short space where here I long…

My Angel…

I know place a shine comes revelation by a crucifixion. This world of tattered souls bleeds please take control. I see your me in my industry in you believe let us now see. I look to us, a place mine where days in us I rewind. Over and over peril comes in. But then I…

Birthday In Nashville (Small Slice Of Nashville)

For my birthday I got a very big surprise. You see, though I may live in East Tennessee, my family is from Nashville, the state’s capital. Nashville seemingly grows every week. Especially with it being a mecca for country music added with an NFL team, the Tennessee Titans, Nashville is growing faster every day. This…

My Trip Downtown

I took a trip downtown today. I had to get the type of license which would allow me to get on an airplane. I haven’t been on a plane in years but if I had to now I can. I was downtown in this building. It is known as the Old Courthouse. It is indeed…

Little Things

Years have scarred and I’m torn by time. The little things I do now hold close mine. As I have traveled it, highway at full speed, my want did eclipse what I really did need. Something for all of the nights to usher in another day I find joy for tomorrow to begin. That which…

Siren

You conjure to exercise your illuminating ways. What you said was clear but hindsight is in a haze. *** You’re excited to please eyes that look at you; but any that do pursue you alter and confuse. *** Moving on some stage, where you spin a trance, do you remember what we shared in a…